Hey ,

The fees for private medical colleges are somewhere from 10lakhs to as high as 50lakhs in some colleges. Most of the private colleges do not offer any concession to the reserved categories though there may be some. 

So you chose accordingly and I think you must wait for all the rounds of counseling. Who knows, you might get into a government college. So don't lose hopes and wait for it. Also I feel that if you are really passionate about NEET , you can repeat a year if possible and then come up with flying colours next year.

All the best for your future.