Hello, please don’t be hard on yourself will not do you any good sir.

Let the past be in the past you can always start somewhere and make it something so all I am suggesting you please to find what you truly desire to do and to put all your heart into it and make it work this time.

I truly believe that once you find what do you want to do you do wonders.
Direct all your thoughts towards achieving something and we will do it.

I hope I could help you sir.

all the best your future.